newest older email guestbook notes profile friends private host design		green tea and magazines April 12, 2003-11:18 am how did i let myself become this? i'm a monster. i can't stand to be touched today. i want to shrink and disapear. my lips are numb like i've been kissing for hours. bitten, they're bleeding too. it's been raining for weeks. i feel like the sky. overcast, grey and heavy. but i can't cry. there's no one alive in this world. last-next